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What’s He Crying About?

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What’s He Crying About?

I sat in a state of wonderment, leaning forward in my seat for nearly the entire sermon. I could not focus on anything or anyone around me. The preacher had my undivided attention. I hadn’t heard preaching on the Name of Jesus like this in many years.

To me, he was like a guide walking down the hallways of my mind, opening the window blinds and shedding illumination as he went. I stopped momentarily at each window and looked at views of God that I had never seen from that particular perspective before.

I wept unashamedly as my understanding was enlightened even more. My face smiled the best it could while I wept. Tears of Joy and Thankfulness continually streamed down my cheeks. I was enraptured.

For me, it felt like a God-Moment. The crowd responded wonderfully. My tired body wouldn’t let me stand the whole sermon, but the want-to was there.

I had never heard a sermon on the Godhead quite this amazing. It was too glorious for words. It carried me to a place that felt similar to what the Apostle must have felt like when he said he was carried away into the third Heaven.

On Thursday night of the 2013 UPCI General Conference, Brother Raymond Woodward stood preaching about the Name Of Jesus. The congregation came alive!

I couldn’t stop crying. I was so grateful for the Revelation of the Mighty God in Christ. Every emotion in me surrendered. Tears, amens, clapping, thanksgiving, rejoicing, hunger, passion, elation, and overwhelming joy came over me. My shoulders shook, while I sobbed. I ‘lost it’ and I did not care who saw me.

This sermon was not a pop-psychology fix. It wasn’t some namby-pamby feel good discourse. This was the “finest of the wheat” and my soul was being fed like it had not eaten in a long, long time.

Doctrine. That was what filled me with joy to overflowing. I could not stop crying. I had never heard this Oneness Message preached and explained any more beautifully of more powerfully.

A middle-age man (who was raised in an Apostolic church) nearby looked at me and asked his neighbor, “What’s he crying about?”

What Am I Crying About?

  • I’m sorry to say, but if you have to ask why I’m crying, you wouldn’t understand if I tried to explain it to you.
  • If you had a revelation of the Oneness of the Godhead for yourself, you wouldn’t have wondered about me, you would have joined me.
  • If you really loved this Jesus Name message, you wouldn’t have even asked, you would have known.

Thanks anyway for asking, but before you go… could you hand me that Kleenex box?


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Written by Martyn Ballestero

October 13, 2013 at 5:55 pm

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  1. Elder I share in the emotions of such a beautiful revelation. I too weep at a shallow minded generation who shouts over a feel good emotional sermon, yet stand in confusion when such a powerful word is rendered for our salvation. THANK GOD FOR REVELATION!

    Ronald McDuff

    October 13, 2013 at 6:30 pm

  2. I was crying as well….and LOVED your tears!! What an amazing sermon that was! So thankful for the revelation!


    October 13, 2013 at 8:47 pm

  3. Wow, powerful! Are there CD or DVD recordings of that message available?


    October 13, 2013 at 9:03 pm

  4. I agree…it was powerful! Enjoyable read as always…keep them coming Bro B!

    Rob McKee

    October 14, 2013 at 3:56 am

  5. Thank you for sharing the beauty of being stirred once again for this incredible message and deeper understanding of the Mighty God in Christ. Our Pastor, Bro. John Bowen, Jr., is one of the greatest preachers/teachers on the Name of Jesus and oneness of the God head I’ve heard. His preaching over the past 10 years has deepened our understanding and love for the doctrine that makes us what we are. Thank you for sharing the Word through your blog. Your account of the school teacher diagramming Acts 2:38 has been a favorite through the years, and an account my teenage daughter repeats as well.

    Susan Jenkins Writer

    October 14, 2013 at 6:28 am

  6. Thank you for sharing. If we ever cease to be amazed…
    I thank you also for things you shared and preached over the years as well. Your account of the teacher diagramming Acts 2:38 had been a favorite of our family, including my teenage daughter who just referred to the illustration in Sunday School. The next generation needs the passion of the previous ones. God bless

    Susan Jenkins Writer

    October 14, 2013 at 6:37 am

  7. One of the best feelings, for me as a saint, is leaving the church feeling so full of the Word and new knowledge that I know not one more thing could be added at that moment. Along with that feeling comes the knowledge that I will be feasting on this message for days, if not weeks, to come. If you are missing that type of teaching, or have never experienced it… for it, find it, and KEEP it.

    Brother, I have experienced this “why is she crying” moments through the revelation and remembrance messages. You have delivered many of those message! It is because you receive the message the same way that you deliver it, 100% the Word and 100% your whole heart.

    Deborah Gustin

    October 14, 2013 at 7:00 am

  8. I did not have the opportunity of sitting in the audience as Brother Woodward preached that dynamic message, but I did have the chance to sit in my dining room and hear the audio and watch the video of this masterpiece. I joined you and what must have been multitudes of others who wept and rejoiced. Tears boiled down my face.

    Brother Woodward is a gift to the church. I heard him first at a camp meeting here in California. I believe I literally sat with my mouth hanging open.

    Blessings to you and yours. Thank you for what you do.

    Shirley Buxton

    October 15, 2013 at 10:12 am

  9. Thank you Dad. I agree. Loved the article!

    Ballestero Anthony

    October 22, 2013 at 9:38 pm

  10. I love this post. As a matter of fact, I haven’t read one of your posts that I haven’t loved. However, I must say that as blessed as I am with your anointed thoughts, I am MOST blessed by your CONSISTENCY. I like to scroll back to your early posts in December of 2009 and remind myself that there are people who are in this thing for the “long haul”. I know you have been serving The Lord much longer than these five blog years, but in this day, even five years of consistent service in one area can be rare. Thank you for your love for Truth. Thank you for taking the time to write. Thank you for being consistent and faithful so that others have a path to follow. I am encouraged. God bless.


    October 24, 2013 at 12:20 pm

  11. I wish I could have been there to hear it. I am going to get it and listen to it. I love reading your blog. Our church services sound like rock concerts. No one wants to sing about being One God Apostolic or the Holy Ghost. I hear older saints talk how our churches use to shout and dance in the spirit. We jump to the beat of the music. I hear about how there use to be alter calls where people seeked God and worshipped and people prayed with one another. We cry and pray a little, maybe speak in tongues. We tell people they have the Holy Ghost and they are surprised. It is over in a few minutes. I am told this is what the young want. I am young – I want more! What does God want?


    October 28, 2013 at 1:56 pm

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